I went to see the movie Hairspray (reviews) tonight and I found it a little ironic that now is the only time in my life that I don't need hairspray! I also found it interesting, as the movie caused me to reflect on my own life, that I've in my own way resembled both of the lead female characters. At one time I was a beauty queen who won, second runner up and second for swim suit and then 15 years later was a 100lbs more after having my two girls. Now more than ever I really stand out in the crowd, more than ever as the bald lady. I stand out for being different now, or as I'd rather like to say, "as anything but normal." Just the way I like it, I suppose, being normal would not suit me in the least. Now I'm going to use the hairspray, I have left, for something use full; to spray my roses before I hang them up to dry and on the bottom of my feet, so they don't slip in my heeled sandels.( I learnt this trick while watching Oprah today!)
I'm off to Vancouver with my husband tomorrow for a night in city before my chemo treatment on Friday. You won't hear from me for a few days now. This is my fourth chemo treatment, adn when this one is done, I'm half done all my chemo treatments, 8 in total. Somewhat of a milestone I suppose, 13 months to go.
I'll fall asleep singing in my mind, "You can't stop the beat!!" a lyric from the movie Hairspray. Nothing can stop me either!!
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
The right Place at the right time!!
As I was speaking with my therapist yesterday, I shared with her that I feel there seems to be an on going theme to my life right now and it has to do with being at the right place at the right time. It happened again...this time heading towards the reception following the beautiful service honoring the life of Lydia Janz, Chris's Grandma.
As we headed up the long stair case, I was a little nervous as I carried Cadence my 2 year old on my hip, with a few elderly folks and in front and a few more behind. The one making me the most nervous was the gentleman directly in front of me,as his legs started to shake about half way and just as he reached the last step, and I was about to make a silent sigh of releif,he slipped and fell backwards. As I gripped the railing with my right hand, while pinning Cadence between my hip and the wall, I caught the man, with my knees locked and my left arm extended, he kind of bounced off my impants and I held him for a few seconds before an able bodied person above, grabbed his arm and pulled him off of me. What a mess that could have been, Cadence and I in the middle of old folks dominos, and not the fun game with the spots or the pizza place!! But again, I was at right place at the right time, because God only knows the injuries that could have occured if me and my strong arms and legs and my sturdy impants weren't there. Cadence had a small bump on her head, and I don't think the older gentleman even knew what happened; it may have been the most "action" he's had in years:)You are welcome kind SIR!!!
As we headed up the long stair case, I was a little nervous as I carried Cadence my 2 year old on my hip, with a few elderly folks and in front and a few more behind. The one making me the most nervous was the gentleman directly in front of me,as his legs started to shake about half way and just as he reached the last step, and I was about to make a silent sigh of releif,he slipped and fell backwards. As I gripped the railing with my right hand, while pinning Cadence between my hip and the wall, I caught the man, with my knees locked and my left arm extended, he kind of bounced off my impants and I held him for a few seconds before an able bodied person above, grabbed his arm and pulled him off of me. What a mess that could have been, Cadence and I in the middle of old folks dominos, and not the fun game with the spots or the pizza place!! But again, I was at right place at the right time, because God only knows the injuries that could have occured if me and my strong arms and legs and my sturdy impants weren't there. Cadence had a small bump on her head, and I don't think the older gentleman even knew what happened; it may have been the most "action" he's had in years:)You are welcome kind SIR!!!
What a gorgeous night to be sitting outside with my girls. Everything is lush and green after the rain, the flowers are full bloom and the air is fresh. It's nice to be comfortable, not to hot, not many mosquitos (that bother the girls)and taking in the sights and smells around me. The faint scent of a bbq off in the distance, the fragrance of near by flora, and a dog barking playfully. Perhaps it's just this space in time that my senses are heightened, or it's because I spent time walking through a cemetary with Carmelle today, to bring flowers to Great-Grandma's new graveside. I crap, now I smell a stinky poopy diaper, gotta go, Mommy duty calls and so does Cadence's diaper!!!
Announcements...
Chris will be headlining the Abbotsford AgriFair on Sunday August 5th. He plays at 6pm adn 9:30pm right before the fireworks. He will be featuring different songs for each of the sets so try and catch both shows. He'll have cd's and merchandise available; hope to see you all there!!!
There will be a Janz Family Benefit Concert Sept 21st at Abby Arts Centre (directions) at Abby Sen Sec school. Tickets will be about $20 each, and all the proceeds of the night will go to benefit our family. Performances by, Kelsey, Colin and Chris Janz. Songs written by Paul Janz will also featured.
There will be Raffle Prizes, a 50/50 draw and other opportunities to support our Janz family, Feather and Chris Janz and their two little girls. For tax receipts, cheques can be made out to the Run for the Cure on that night. More info will follow, but please pass this info around and we hope to see you and all of your friends there!!
There will be a Janz Family Benefit Concert Sept 21st at Abby Arts Centre (directions) at Abby Sen Sec school. Tickets will be about $20 each, and all the proceeds of the night will go to benefit our family. Performances by, Kelsey, Colin and Chris Janz. Songs written by Paul Janz will also featured.
There will be Raffle Prizes, a 50/50 draw and other opportunities to support our Janz family, Feather and Chris Janz and their two little girls. For tax receipts, cheques can be made out to the Run for the Cure on that night. More info will follow, but please pass this info around and we hope to see you and all of your friends there!!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
AAhhh Bugger!
When I was first diagnosed with cancer back four and a half months ago, that first weekend the thing that bummed me out the most was that my soccer season was just going to start and I wouldn't be able to play. That's when it really hit me that this cancer was going to be a bugger! I was so looking forward to my spring season with my team, mixed league, because I'd had such a great experience with them the previous year. It felt so good to get out on the soccer field again after so many years and to feel so young and healthy (though my body often ached like the dickens after a game!) I was the most fit I'd been in years, decieving, as at the same time the cancer was plotting how to move through my system. So as my Abbotsford Rover's set off for their first practise I was at home experiencing the first thing that cancer would rob me of. I decided that cancer would get very little and that I was going to fight to preserve life as I knoew it.
I didn't get to any season games for my team, because I was afraid of sitting on the sides lines feeling sorry for myself rather than cheering them on. I was humbled by my team mates last Saturday night as many of them assembled for a Pub night in my honour. They had pink ballooons, and even the manly men from my team had no problem sitting with these pink decorations, because it was for me. They raised money for my fundraising efforts for the run for the Cure and by the end of the night I was blown away by the $400 they raised in just a few hours. Even though I didn't show up to cheer for them, they didn't stop cheering me on! Thanks to my team and it is my hope and prayer that I'll see you on the field next season, I'll be fit and ready and proud to wear my gastly yellow jersey:)
I did manage to go out yesterday and cheer for the Rovers as they played their season end tournment. They scored their only goal of the day within 30 seconds of my arrival. Perhaps I'm a good luck charm and it's sign that I'll be out next year, I'm going to take it that way anyway.
Driving home from the Pub night last Saturday night, Chris and I came upon a very drunk driver in front of us. We called the authorities as I was hoestly afraid that we were going to see someone get killed. As we followed him, as observed him head into on coming traffic half a dozen times, we kept calling in his location. (We were not leaving him until we knew he was off the road, we figured he was going to drive himself off into the ditch fairly quickly as it was) As we followed him, he got paranoid and would pull over, so we just pulled over safetly behind him. We figured this way at least he wasn't driving on the road. Finally the police showed up in full force, four patrol cars, we were requested by dipatch to stop and make a statment on site, so we did. The officer said the driver was so drunk he couldn't stand up when he got out on the car. He thanked us for quite possibly saving at least one life that night. He said, "You can sleep well tonight knowing you did a good thing. This was a deadly situation and lives were saved by you tonight."
I thank God that once again I was in the right place at the right time. I've realized more and more lately, that is my life right now, even if i don't quite understand it all the time, "I'm at the right place at the right time." My life, is God's life, My time is God's time, my plan is God's plan. It just feels right.
I didn't get to any season games for my team, because I was afraid of sitting on the sides lines feeling sorry for myself rather than cheering them on. I was humbled by my team mates last Saturday night as many of them assembled for a Pub night in my honour. They had pink ballooons, and even the manly men from my team had no problem sitting with these pink decorations, because it was for me. They raised money for my fundraising efforts for the run for the Cure and by the end of the night I was blown away by the $400 they raised in just a few hours. Even though I didn't show up to cheer for them, they didn't stop cheering me on! Thanks to my team and it is my hope and prayer that I'll see you on the field next season, I'll be fit and ready and proud to wear my gastly yellow jersey:)
I did manage to go out yesterday and cheer for the Rovers as they played their season end tournment. They scored their only goal of the day within 30 seconds of my arrival. Perhaps I'm a good luck charm and it's sign that I'll be out next year, I'm going to take it that way anyway.
Driving home from the Pub night last Saturday night, Chris and I came upon a very drunk driver in front of us. We called the authorities as I was hoestly afraid that we were going to see someone get killed. As we followed him, as observed him head into on coming traffic half a dozen times, we kept calling in his location. (We were not leaving him until we knew he was off the road, we figured he was going to drive himself off into the ditch fairly quickly as it was) As we followed him, he got paranoid and would pull over, so we just pulled over safetly behind him. We figured this way at least he wasn't driving on the road. Finally the police showed up in full force, four patrol cars, we were requested by dipatch to stop and make a statment on site, so we did. The officer said the driver was so drunk he couldn't stand up when he got out on the car. He thanked us for quite possibly saving at least one life that night. He said, "You can sleep well tonight knowing you did a good thing. This was a deadly situation and lives were saved by you tonight."
I thank God that once again I was in the right place at the right time. I've realized more and more lately, that is my life right now, even if i don't quite understand it all the time, "I'm at the right place at the right time." My life, is God's life, My time is God's time, my plan is God's plan. It just feels right.
Check out my updated website.
There are a couple new pictures on my website. Chris updated the site for me, check it out at: www.featherjanz.com
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