Lord, help me to live the best life you have planned for me.
Please help me to see all your gifts along journey.
Open my eyes to your goodness.
Remind me that you have me right where you want me and need me.
My reminder:
Feather,(you could put your name here) remember God needs you; He created you for His purpose and His purpose is perfect!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Tuesday is tomorrow right?!?!
The days are starting to blend into each other now and I'm having trouble figuring out what day it is sometimes. But I do know that for sure tomorrow I am scheduled for an MRI. For some reason the machine they want to use on me is in Surrey. The test is in the afternoon, I will be transported by Ambulance from noon-around 4pm. If you were planning to visit around that time pleasee call me on my cell first to see if I will be around. 604-854-2800
Hoping to sleep well tonight.
You sleep tight too!!
Hoping to sleep well tonight.
You sleep tight too!!
Looking up !
The worst of the infection certianly seems to have passed.Things are looking up. My immediate concerns have been the state of my veins, which have been damaged from cancer treatment. They veins keep collapsing after awhile and those are the good ones they can even start. I had 21 needle pokes in my arms in two days. Not exactly fun. I'm quickly running out of usable veins. They wanted to put in a pick line but after evaluation they feel I am to high risk for that particular procedure, I don't exactly know why, but I am no a medical professsional.
If one more vein collapses I will be forced to take oral antibiodics, which are not as effective and are very hard on the stomach. I have a weak and sensitive stomach as it is, bleeding stomach ulcer issues etc, so I am concerned about the oral antibiodics. I am praying that the vein that is working now will keep working.
I will probably be here for a few more days still. Even with the improvement I would love to feel much better.
Looking up,
Feather
If one more vein collapses I will be forced to take oral antibiodics, which are not as effective and are very hard on the stomach. I have a weak and sensitive stomach as it is, bleeding stomach ulcer issues etc, so I am concerned about the oral antibiodics. I am praying that the vein that is working now will keep working.
I will probably be here for a few more days still. Even with the improvement I would love to feel much better.
Looking up,
Feather
Sunday, March 29, 2009
This was one worth sharing...
The 'LITTLE' Things. .
As you might know, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn't go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.
One of them Missed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.
One's Car wouldn't start
One went back to Answer the telephone.
One had a Child that dawdled
And didn't get ready as soon as he should have.
One couldn't Get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work But before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.
Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone...
All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where God wants me to be at this very moment..
Next time your morning seems to be Going wrong,
The children are slow getting dressed,
You can't seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don't get mad or frustrated;
It May be just that
Someone is watching over you.
May you continue to find peace
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose,
is God's purpose.
I believe in Gods's purpose for where I am right now.
As you might know, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.
Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.
One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn't go off in time.
One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.
One of them Missed his bus.
One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.
One's Car wouldn't start
One went back to Answer the telephone.
One had a Child that dawdled
And didn't get ready as soon as he should have.
One couldn't Get a taxi.
The one that struck me was the man who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work But before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot.
He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.
Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone...
All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where God wants me to be at this very moment..
Next time your morning seems to be Going wrong,
The children are slow getting dressed,
You can't seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don't get mad or frustrated;
It May be just that
Someone is watching over you.
May you continue to find peace
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose,
is God's purpose.
I believe in Gods's purpose for where I am right now.
Alive and sort of well.
13 days and counting! And it looks like I will be here for at least another week. The infection I have in my lymphatic system is also in my blood. I am on 4 rounds of 2 different kinds of IV antibiodics everyday for 10 days, another week to go. At the end of that I will still most likely be facing surgery. Thankfully the infection is improving slowly but at least it is not getting worse.
I will be having an MRI in the next few days that will help see things more clearly and hopefully not find any suspicion of cancer. In the meantime visitors are welcome, call first to be sure I'm available or in my room. I like to go for walks when ever I feel up to it.
Tomorrow I should be getting a small medical procedure to have a pick line inserted in my arm, it's like a semi-permanent IV. The reason for it is because my veins are causing major issues. They are bad since chemo. They are small, few, weak, and tricky. I have 16 IV attempts in 24 hours yesterday, not my best day. I am literally praying over the vein I have working now, which is continuing to work. If it goes, I end up oral antibiodics, which are not as effective for the condition I have and would reak havok on my already weak and sensative stomach that just had another bleeding ulcer in January. Oral antibiodics would be very high risk for my stomach which would be another batch of issues.
Mildly relating to Job,
Feather
I will be having an MRI in the next few days that will help see things more clearly and hopefully not find any suspicion of cancer. In the meantime visitors are welcome, call first to be sure I'm available or in my room. I like to go for walks when ever I feel up to it.
Tomorrow I should be getting a small medical procedure to have a pick line inserted in my arm, it's like a semi-permanent IV. The reason for it is because my veins are causing major issues. They are bad since chemo. They are small, few, weak, and tricky. I have 16 IV attempts in 24 hours yesterday, not my best day. I am literally praying over the vein I have working now, which is continuing to work. If it goes, I end up oral antibiodics, which are not as effective for the condition I have and would reak havok on my already weak and sensative stomach that just had another bleeding ulcer in January. Oral antibiodics would be very high risk for my stomach which would be another batch of issues.
Mildly relating to Job,
Feather
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Longest running episode.
SO this has been my longest running stay in a hospital ever. I am going on day 10 and won't be going home anytime to soon, a few more days at least. Just as my bronchitis, bronchial spasms and asthma were getting under control, I was overwhelmed that they were missing something and that something else must be going on in my body because I was still feeling so terribly. Of course my biggest fear was that there could be cancer that had returned.
Thankfully all the tests they have run in the last two days have not shown any indication of malignancy. However what we did find was an infection that has spread through my lymphatic system. The origin of the infection is, of all places, my right breast mound. Where I had major infection problems in May of 2007, almost 2 years ago, appears to have reared it's ugly head. Why, they have no idea. Perhaps it was dorment and flared up do to my immune system being compromised by the bronchitis etc.
So I will be on IV antibiodics for a few days. I have had one set and just starting a second. I will be consulting with a surgeon. If the antibiodics do not clear this infection up soon, the implant will probably have to come out.Hopefully this won't have to happen.But if it does I am okay with that.
Right now the swollen lymphnodes under my right arm are so sore it's more comfortable to lay with my right arm over my head. The breast is very swollen, hard, hot, red and purple, sore, and feels like it could burst; also very painful. I am on some pain medication that helps take the edge off.
I am glad I was here when this infection was discovered so it could be treated so quickly.
Again, confirmation to me that I am right where I should be.
I look forward to visit from Chris and the girls. I am thrilled that we have found a wonderful caregiver, Rea, she is a true belessing to our family!! It really helps to know that our home and girls are being so well cared for. This brings my heart peace and comfort.
Thank-you for your thoguhts and prayers.
Getting better slowly but SURELY,
Feather
Thankfully all the tests they have run in the last two days have not shown any indication of malignancy. However what we did find was an infection that has spread through my lymphatic system. The origin of the infection is, of all places, my right breast mound. Where I had major infection problems in May of 2007, almost 2 years ago, appears to have reared it's ugly head. Why, they have no idea. Perhaps it was dorment and flared up do to my immune system being compromised by the bronchitis etc.
So I will be on IV antibiodics for a few days. I have had one set and just starting a second. I will be consulting with a surgeon. If the antibiodics do not clear this infection up soon, the implant will probably have to come out.Hopefully this won't have to happen.But if it does I am okay with that.
Right now the swollen lymphnodes under my right arm are so sore it's more comfortable to lay with my right arm over my head. The breast is very swollen, hard, hot, red and purple, sore, and feels like it could burst; also very painful. I am on some pain medication that helps take the edge off.
I am glad I was here when this infection was discovered so it could be treated so quickly.
Again, confirmation to me that I am right where I should be.
I look forward to visit from Chris and the girls. I am thrilled that we have found a wonderful caregiver, Rea, she is a true belessing to our family!! It really helps to know that our home and girls are being so well cared for. This brings my heart peace and comfort.
Thank-you for your thoguhts and prayers.
Getting better slowly but SURELY,
Feather
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Cross cultural connection.
For the past three days I have shared a room with an indo-Canadian woman in her 70's. She is constantly accompanied by family, and sometimes LOTS of family!! They are all wonderful caring and loving people. The generations of family, probably 3-4 generations come to show their support to her all through the day. It is beautiful to see.
They are so kind to me. She smiles and speaks to me in punjabi with a few english words thrown in here and there. She is so sweet. I smile at her and practise my lame one phrase of punjabi "ki-hal-a", which is a basic greeting or "how are you?"
She told her nurse aid, who is bilingual, to tell me that she thinks I am nice. I was touched.
I ended up being able to have a nice talk with her son, who is the age of my parents. He translated to her, what I was saying. I felt very much again the peace that God has me right where He wants me:) I have no doubts!
They are so kind to me. She smiles and speaks to me in punjabi with a few english words thrown in here and there. She is so sweet. I smile at her and practise my lame one phrase of punjabi "ki-hal-a", which is a basic greeting or "how are you?"
She told her nurse aid, who is bilingual, to tell me that she thinks I am nice. I was touched.
I ended up being able to have a nice talk with her son, who is the age of my parents. He translated to her, what I was saying. I felt very much again the peace that God has me right where He wants me:) I have no doubts!
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