Last messages to each other; good friends for so long.

Dear Rachel,

I have always looked up to you Rachel. You have always been a
shining example to me of how to live, under all circumstances.I care
about you deeply and love you, my friend and sister in Christ. I
continue to learn so much from you and always feel so honoured to
know you.

Much Love,

Feather



dear Feather,

Just realized tonight
that next week Thursday will be my 5 year anniversary since my initial
diagnosis - 5 years! Wow. That went fast and slow as molasses all at
the same time. Not that 5 years is a magic number but it is a
milestone that the infamous They put out there.

The past few weeks I feel like I've turned a bit of a corner for the
worse. I plateaued a bit in April/May after my palliative care doc got
my medications under control and the radiation took effect in my back,
head and hips. But it's only for a time. They can only radiate so much
and I am having to up my pain meds significantly and with more
regularity. Maybe I'll get another little plateau but we'll see.

I pray for you when you come to mind as I'm sure it is a struggle for
you. In some ways I think this would be so much easier if the kids
weren't so affected, hey? That is the hardest part for me, for sure.
And for Neil. I don't want to be the source of pain and sadness for
them - but I am, sadly. Thankfully God is a god of comfort. And we
cling to that.

Hope your appointment goes well tomorrow.

Love you too, my friend.

with love,
rb