I keep waiting to feel better and just when I think I'm getting there, wellness escapes me. I've had to make the very hard decision to take more time off of work. In total I will probably end up being off for 6 weeks. I'm so thankful to my wonderful employers at the Abbotford abc restaurant, for being so supportive and understanding. My goal is to return to work on May 2nd; but I've got a long road of recovery ahead of me before that.
At times I feel very emotionally overwhelmed, that once again I find myself in poor health. I've been going through a grieving process of sorts, as I finally come to terms with the fact that I am not a healthy person; I may never be. for the first time in my life I really feel limited by my health. I now have to always be cautious of my environment and I can't plan to being as adventurous as I have been in the past. I do have a sinking feeling in my heart as I understand the whole weight of my circumstances.
It has been considered that my lung problems could be cancer related as in; worried that cancer has possibly spread to my lungs. My specialist will be reviewing my chest xrays and blood work to be more confident that this is not the reason for my problems. Women with my combination of issues (breast cancer that spread to lymph nodes and asthma) as 4X more likely to develop lungs mets(cancer spread to the lungs) than with breast cancer patients who don't have asthma. The encouraging part is that once asthma is controlled, my risk for lung mets becomes the same as any other breast cancer patients. For most of the last year my asthma has been under control, all but a few weeks a year ago and now.
April will be a busy time with Easter, Nose/sinus surgery April 15th, Chris's parent's arriving for a week visit and the girls birthday party on April 24th. Other than those things the only other thing I will be doing this month is recovering and resting. R and R is in the daytimer!!
Marching on,
feather
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