Dear Friends of a Feather Blog Readers:
Hello. My name is Rosslyn. I am Feather's mentor and have been for the last????well you'd have to ask my darling Feather because she has a memory for dates like a computer....in any case, for many years.
I would like to thank you for your kindess and support of Feather. For manyof you, Feather is a woman from a blog site. For others she is a close friend. And for others, she is someone that you know peripherally but have not come to know yet as a friend. Feather is a unique individual as her name implies. She is fun and creative, energetic and at times a little outrageous:) She is tender hearted and sensitive yet at other times adventurous and unpredicatable:) And I love every aspect of her.
I know that she is a treasure; a rare find. She is a dear young woman who has a love for her family and for her creator. There is an innocence about Feather that is endearing and hence there are many people who love her who have yet to meet her.
Feather is a pure heart. That is not to say that she is pure or that she does not make mistakes. But rather, she has a trust in others goodness and is willing to hold on to it in the hopes that those who come within her realm of influence will come to know a better way. This grace and child like faith is extended not only to her fellow man but most clearly evidenced in her love for her creator. God is Feathers center of the universe and I believe she is a delight to His heart:)
I would like to thank those readers who have expressed a desire to contribute for the Friends for Feather Fundraiser. I must clarify that it was I not Feather who thought of extending this fundraiser to her blog. Last night Feather told me that some of the readers were offended by this fundraiser and its focus on finding a nanny for Feather. For those readers who were offended............Please forgive me if I have offended you. That was not my intent. My friend (Candace and I) are doing the Friends for Feather Fundraiser because we feel it is the right thing to do. When Feather is on her feet in this regard, we will turn our focus to others in need because...........again it is the right thing to do. In life you often get back what you give. Possibly one day we will be able to help you when you find yourself in need. I would consider it an honour to serve you in this way.
As this is a one time entry into Feather's blog, I suggest that we find it in our hearts to offer and receive the gift of forgiveness in all aspects of our lives. It is a key offered to all and when used with courage and humility unlocks a freedom that goes beyond words.
For all of Feathers readers, I offer a blessing and a hope to you and your family as you step forward to live a life that is honouring and pleasing to others and to He who knows all things!
Warmly,
Rosslyn
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Couple things...
My body feels like it's been in a major car accident. My muscles are so sore from the disaster at Central Church, I still can't believe Sat happened. I's been very surreal. The band has decided to finish the tour, only missing one show. We are so proud of them and all they'd done during this time was stay the course. Chris and
I are even more proud to say that Starfield are our friends
Please continue to pray for everyone involved..
I are even more proud to say that Starfield are our friends
Please continue to pray for everyone involved..
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Need a babysitter Sunday, pls!
If you are able to help us with childcare on Sunday (tomorrow) at all, that would be great. Our regular girl isn't available tomorrow. Next wednesday we also could use some help,(morning/afternoon or evening).Thrs. May 1st, we need help day and night. And Friday morning, May 2. IF you can help please let us know. Thank-you and God Bless.
From Feather's Mom, Gloria Wagner
This is my first time writing on this Feather’s blog. I am her mother. Many people say to me that it must be very hard to see your daughter go through such a difficult time. It is.
But I must say that the love and support expressed by so many has made it a little easier.
And quite honestly I don’t know how people survive without the love, prayers and help that we have had. Perhaps they don’t. When you are fighting for your life and sicker than you could ever imagine being, support is essential. Without it one would become very discouraged and may give up. That possibility is extremely sad. Since Feathers
first cancer she has come along side numerous others. She has been close to those who have been terminal, spending hours with them in hospital. She has befriended those that needed a friend. And she has dedicated her life to try to save lives by educating women of all ages to take responsibility for their own breast health.
I am very pleased with the way Feather has handled herself over the years, but I have never been more impressed than over this past year. An Herceptin positive diagnosis is not a good one. The treatment is quite new. Women didn’t used to survive this cancer. Now with this new and very difficult treatment they have a 50% chance of survival. Does that sound like something you would like to deal with, especially when you have a two year old and a four year old. Probably not.
Feather handled the chemo like a trooper. She was tough and didn’t complain. She didn’t even complain about the horrible infections that she got from her surgeries. Because of the first infection she had to have a second surgery. The radiation left her with a terrible burn which was treated the same as a severe burn from fire. It was ugly.
The last week of radiation she spent in the hospital. She was extremely sick and put through many nasty tests. When I went to the hospital she could not even talk. She was curled in fetal position and obviously in very bad shape.
Just before Easter Feather suffered a severe convulsion. Chris had to call an ambulance in the middle of the night. When he called us I laid in bed and cried, thinking now what.
I thought at that time that she may not make it. Once again tests were done. Many were repeats, but some were new, including a spinal tap. Feather pulled herself together trying really hard to enjoy Easter and family.
The convulsions continued. Chris took care of her at home. His ability to do that kept her out of the hospital which pleased the Doctors as her immune system was so low they were afraid of more infections. Chris has done a great job. The love expressed through his care is tremendous, and very appreciated by Feather. Feather was on regular IV until a week ago.
For three to four weeks, right up to about April 10, Feather experienced severe memory
problems. She couldn’t carry on a conversation because she could not remember what she just said or what the other person had said. She was very frustrated and so were we. It was downright scary. It reminded me of my Dad who died from Alzhiemers. Yes, it was that bad. Somehow she managed to speak at a fund-raiser with Debbie Fortnum and Lisa Adrienne on April 5th. I had her in the ER Thursday night. She was very sick and often incoherent but she was determined to go and speak as she had said she would if she could. She thought that she had been asked to speak just as part of the program. Feather and Chris had no idea it was a fund-raiser for them. I was reading the article in the Chilliwack Newspaper when Chris called. I had just read the paragraph saying it was a fund-raiser for them and asked “Did you know that?” “No” was the response. Chris asked Feather and she didn’t know. They said “Wow. That is so nice, etc.” Then Feather was determined to go. She spent the whole next day after the event in bed on IV. She said it was worth it.
Unfortunately Feather went through another really rough period from the 7th to 11th with almost non-stop vomiting. Can you imagine? She had already been vomiting everyday but this was much worse. She had to be on IV to keep from getting dehydrated. That was a terrible week, but again she pulled herself together to attend the fund-raiser for her support group.
The following week was much better. By Wednesday she was showing marked improvement. On Thursday she decided to go ahead with the girls birthday party on Saturday. We put some time together to organize it and pulled off a pretty nice party with help from friends and family. But again she over did it and spent the next day in bed and ended up with a severe migraine. But again thinking it was worth it for her girls.
Feather is learning to pace herself. But the equilibrium problem makes her quite sick. She got sick bathing the kids last night. And then again, rather violently, when trying to put laundry away in their bedroom. Can you imagine getting violently sick because you are putting laundry away??? Not a pretty picture is it? The same thing happens if she tries to pick up the kids toys or empty the dish-washer.
The past 3 months have been terrible. When Feather was out of bed Jan. to April 10, she tried to relate to her kids as best she could. She tried to answer emails but generally failed to do so successfully. I could tell by looking at her that she was very, very sick. It broke my heart.
I have read some of the negative comments on her blog and really feel sorry for people that have such a lack of compassion and understanding. Maybe someday they will find themselves seriously ill and wishing they had friends that cared for them the way Feather has. But like Feather has graciously said, she wouldn’t wish this on anyone.
I would like to add: The Nanny isn’t just for Feather and her children, it is for me, too.
While Feather was really sick the first 2 weeks of April I was here everyday, overnight most of them. I have helped as much as I possibly could since her diagnosis and felt that Lizzy was an answer to prayer as I was exhausted. I would love to be able to do more but I am 58 years old and I have Fibromyalgia, a pain disorder that is quite complex, and involves fatigue. It is only by God’s grace and mercy that I’ve been able to do what I have, and I am most thankful for that. We as a family are extremely thankful for all the help we have received. People have been most generous with their time and money. Words are not sufficient. We would like to be able to hug everyone but we don’t even know all those who have given. Please know that you are most appreciated. Feather has wanted to send thank you cards to everyone but neither her nor I have the time and energy. We say THANK YOU now. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.
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But I must say that the love and support expressed by so many has made it a little easier.
And quite honestly I don’t know how people survive without the love, prayers and help that we have had. Perhaps they don’t. When you are fighting for your life and sicker than you could ever imagine being, support is essential. Without it one would become very discouraged and may give up. That possibility is extremely sad. Since Feathers
first cancer she has come along side numerous others. She has been close to those who have been terminal, spending hours with them in hospital. She has befriended those that needed a friend. And she has dedicated her life to try to save lives by educating women of all ages to take responsibility for their own breast health.
I am very pleased with the way Feather has handled herself over the years, but I have never been more impressed than over this past year. An Herceptin positive diagnosis is not a good one. The treatment is quite new. Women didn’t used to survive this cancer. Now with this new and very difficult treatment they have a 50% chance of survival. Does that sound like something you would like to deal with, especially when you have a two year old and a four year old. Probably not.
Feather handled the chemo like a trooper. She was tough and didn’t complain. She didn’t even complain about the horrible infections that she got from her surgeries. Because of the first infection she had to have a second surgery. The radiation left her with a terrible burn which was treated the same as a severe burn from fire. It was ugly.
The last week of radiation she spent in the hospital. She was extremely sick and put through many nasty tests. When I went to the hospital she could not even talk. She was curled in fetal position and obviously in very bad shape.
Just before Easter Feather suffered a severe convulsion. Chris had to call an ambulance in the middle of the night. When he called us I laid in bed and cried, thinking now what.
I thought at that time that she may not make it. Once again tests were done. Many were repeats, but some were new, including a spinal tap. Feather pulled herself together trying really hard to enjoy Easter and family.
The convulsions continued. Chris took care of her at home. His ability to do that kept her out of the hospital which pleased the Doctors as her immune system was so low they were afraid of more infections. Chris has done a great job. The love expressed through his care is tremendous, and very appreciated by Feather. Feather was on regular IV until a week ago.
For three to four weeks, right up to about April 10, Feather experienced severe memory
problems. She couldn’t carry on a conversation because she could not remember what she just said or what the other person had said. She was very frustrated and so were we. It was downright scary. It reminded me of my Dad who died from Alzhiemers. Yes, it was that bad. Somehow she managed to speak at a fund-raiser with Debbie Fortnum and Lisa Adrienne on April 5th. I had her in the ER Thursday night. She was very sick and often incoherent but she was determined to go and speak as she had said she would if she could. She thought that she had been asked to speak just as part of the program. Feather and Chris had no idea it was a fund-raiser for them. I was reading the article in the Chilliwack Newspaper when Chris called. I had just read the paragraph saying it was a fund-raiser for them and asked “Did you know that?” “No” was the response. Chris asked Feather and she didn’t know. They said “Wow. That is so nice, etc.” Then Feather was determined to go. She spent the whole next day after the event in bed on IV. She said it was worth it.
Unfortunately Feather went through another really rough period from the 7th to 11th with almost non-stop vomiting. Can you imagine? She had already been vomiting everyday but this was much worse. She had to be on IV to keep from getting dehydrated. That was a terrible week, but again she pulled herself together to attend the fund-raiser for her support group.
The following week was much better. By Wednesday she was showing marked improvement. On Thursday she decided to go ahead with the girls birthday party on Saturday. We put some time together to organize it and pulled off a pretty nice party with help from friends and family. But again she over did it and spent the next day in bed and ended up with a severe migraine. But again thinking it was worth it for her girls.
Feather is learning to pace herself. But the equilibrium problem makes her quite sick. She got sick bathing the kids last night. And then again, rather violently, when trying to put laundry away in their bedroom. Can you imagine getting violently sick because you are putting laundry away??? Not a pretty picture is it? The same thing happens if she tries to pick up the kids toys or empty the dish-washer.
The past 3 months have been terrible. When Feather was out of bed Jan. to April 10, she tried to relate to her kids as best she could. She tried to answer emails but generally failed to do so successfully. I could tell by looking at her that she was very, very sick. It broke my heart.
I have read some of the negative comments on her blog and really feel sorry for people that have such a lack of compassion and understanding. Maybe someday they will find themselves seriously ill and wishing they had friends that cared for them the way Feather has. But like Feather has graciously said, she wouldn’t wish this on anyone.
I would like to add: The Nanny isn’t just for Feather and her children, it is for me, too.
While Feather was really sick the first 2 weeks of April I was here everyday, overnight most of them. I have helped as much as I possibly could since her diagnosis and felt that Lizzy was an answer to prayer as I was exhausted. I would love to be able to do more but I am 58 years old and I have Fibromyalgia, a pain disorder that is quite complex, and involves fatigue. It is only by God’s grace and mercy that I’ve been able to do what I have, and I am most thankful for that. We as a family are extremely thankful for all the help we have received. People have been most generous with their time and money. Words are not sufficient. We would like to be able to hug everyone but we don’t even know all those who have given. Please know that you are most appreciated. Feather has wanted to send thank you cards to everyone but neither her nor I have the time and energy. We say THANK YOU now. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Update...
The news is reporting 100 people fell, about 70 in hospital for all kinds of injuries, but no fatalites so far to report. It's a Miracle that it no one lost their life. The first prayer I said when I cleared the building in shock was, "PLease LOrd, don't let anyone die!" Many are seriously injured.
It sure looked like an accident that would take many lives. The site was ghastly and unbelievable. The emergency response was quick and those with training that were there, jumped in to help. My Mom and I were in no shape to help, but I called 911, couldn't through so a yelled for people to evacuate the building. Then out side, Mom and I yelled for everyone to move away from the building to allow space for the emergency vehicles, I knew there would be many!! I could't count how many emergency vehicles showed up so quickly.
It sure looked like an accident that would take many lives. The site was ghastly and unbelievable. The emergency response was quick and those with training that were there, jumped in to help. My Mom and I were in no shape to help, but I called 911, couldn't through so a yelled for people to evacuate the building. Then out side, Mom and I yelled for everyone to move away from the building to allow space for the emergency vehicles, I knew there would be many!! I could't count how many emergency vehicles showed up so quickly.
Friday, April 25, 2008
PRAY, PRAY, PRAY!!!
My MOm and I just witnessed about an hour or so ago the worst tragedy we've ever seen in our lives. We were at a Christan music concert in Abbotford, watching our good friends perform, when the floor in front of the stage, folded in...it was like watching slow motion as we watched the four full rows of people fall, as the floor fell a couple storey's into the basement. AS the floor gave way all the speakers and lighting rigs came crashing down into the hole of people, I would guess a 100 people fell in, mostly teenagers who were up at the front.The huge speaker set came falling eowards MOm and I , we jumped bACK as the pew in front of us hit us and slide down. We were left slipping on carpet with no support below it. Mom's purse and my jacket fell down the hole as I held MOm and a man pulled me out holding her. There was shock and trauma everywere. I don't know how people wouldn't have died from this. The injuries are severe, there were more emergency vehicles than I've ever seen in my life. PLease pray that no one has died or will die from their injuries, Pray for the parent's who know their children were there but can't find them, pray for the parent's who've been called because their children or loved ones went down. Pray for the rows of families that fell all together. Pray for the bands and organizers who just witnessed their worst nightmare. I pray God brings healing. THankyou Lord that Mom didn't fall as we were celebrating her birthday.THank-you Lord for those that are safe. I know many poeple will be emotionally traumatized as well, pray for them.
Mom and I are very shaken up. Chris's best friend and other friends were singing, and they are traumatized as they tried to help in the rescue. May the GLory and peace of God shine down on this crowd, the church and the community.
Mom and I are very shaken up. Chris's best friend and other friends were singing, and they are traumatized as they tried to help in the rescue. May the GLory and peace of God shine down on this crowd, the church and the community.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
WOW!
I can hardly believe that some people would have such a negative response to some of my friends recognizing we have a need and being willing to do what they can to help. It wasn't my idea to have a nanny but friends that I have who love and care about me, saw the need. Perhaps some people haven't been reading other parts of my blog, like the fact that I've been sicker lately than I ever have been. I'm in such rough shape they have stopped all treatment,(as of yesterday) to give my weak and worn body a break. Two weeks ago I was so sick, I thought I might actually be dying, thankfully after 5 days of IV fluid treatment I perked up. After many tests and Dr. visits I have been diagnosed with an additional condition that I may very well have for the rest of my life, it’s basically chronic “vertigo”. The only treatment for it is taking anti-nausea medications everyday, gravol is the only affordable one, the others are about $50 per pill. ( Some days it’s so bad I get it just from rolling over in bed, then I know it’s going to be a hard day) We’ve had to spend so much money on medications already for me this year, that we reached our $1200 pharmacare deductable in March, my stomach ulcer medication and anti-biotics were very expensive. My last blood work three weeks ago showed my white Tcells (immune system) to be very low, 1.6, desirable is over 10. My fever was 39.8, not good, my heart was stressed (probably due to the Herceptin (chemo) that I’m still on, that weakens your heart. My last heart muscle test about 5 weeks ago showed my heart had weakened by 3 points, not what we wanted to see. My liver was over producing a certain enzyme and there was fear that the cancer was growing in my liver, thankfully the ultra sound the next day showed my liver to be clear of cancer. I had a spinal tap done to be sure there was no infection or cancer spread there either. I’m losing so much weight so quickly, that it’s been hard on my system as the toxins stored in the fat are released into my body, making me feel like I’m on chemo still. Yesterday was as bad as a worst chemo day. Today I’m a little better, but not strong enough to handle even a quarter of what I use to be able to do.
Everyday I mourn the loss of time with my children. This has been the hardest part of what cancer has taken from me. But I rejoice in the fact the God has provided so many wonderful caregivers for our children, from my Mom, friends, preschool teachers, Sunday school teachers, Awana club teachers, other family members and of course Lizzy.
We were there for Lizzy when she needed us and she was there for us. We thought we had a very well balanced situation where Lizzy had a home during this difficult time in her life, and she was able to go when she wanted to move on, and she had schedule that was completely flexible (we got babysitters when Lizzy wasn’t available). We respected her space and continue to respect her belonging that are here. We told her many times that if she was in need for anything we were there for her, gas for her truck, or money for toiletries etc we gave her our debit card and PIN number and always trusted her. We believed that our relationship was built on love, respect and loyalty. Lizzy had room and board, her children were welcome in our home at all times (our girls loved playing with her children) Lizzy provided loving care to our home and children, just as any good friend would do. I’m grateful for her, and her 33 years of friendship. I wish the best for her and her family.
For some reason some folks on cancer treatment have a really hard time during the treatment months, and others have a harder time afterwards. I fall into the “afterwards” category. More or less, the last three months have felt like one long chemo treatment. My body has had a really hard time recovering from the radiation and chemotherapy. It didn’t help that I’ve had so many complications and set backs along the way. Such as having breast flap skin die after the mastectomy and having to have another surgery before that black dead tissue caused other problems. Then 3 days after that surgery I developed an Ecolli infection (from the hospital) and the surgical site abcessed and I was hospitalized for 4 days and given harsh anti-biotics, which made me as sick as the chemotherapy. I had a gapping open wound on my chest that had to heal from the inside out, for 6 weeks. I was unable to pick up my own children for 3 months.
Because of the infection, chemo therapy was postponed, not desirable for timely treatment. From my first chemo my white Tcells dropped drastically to 1.1 and I then had to have injections every two days for 6 months, after each chemo, so 50+ injections that Chris gave me. ( I’m so glad he’s able to give me injections, as I don’t know if I ever could on my own. I’m glad I haven’t had to try)
I had many harsh side effects from the chemo, many of which I’ve been experiencing lately as well. In mid January I thought I was sliding into home plate safe, when I developed a very large bleeding stomach ulcer, quite likely the worst pain of my life. Though last night I had such a bad migraine headache that I thought about going to emergency but I was finally able to keep Tylenol down once Chris gave me a shot of gravol. During that time I started to notice that I was having serious balance issues, stumbling, walking into things, dizziness, feeling like the room was tipping over on me etc. After much testing and seeing three specialist I now know I have a condition that could be for the rest of my life. Basically the motion sickness I’ve experienced my whole life from moving vehicles, I now get just from moving my own body. The only things they could suggest to make it better other than gravol, was to wear big wrap around sunglasses and a visor, to help limit the movement around me.
I’ve also experienced severe “chemo brain” which is a fun term used in the cancer world to describe the brain damage issues that can come from Chemo. The brain damage can be more or less severe and can be long term, short term or permanent . The most obvious one that most people talk about is memory loss, forgetfulness and short term memory loss. I’ve experienced all of these, mostly in the first week after each chemo and now for the last three months. My memory is so bad I got a daytimer to write everything in, but then I forgot where I put it, so I got a new one and forgot where I put that one as well. Not Fun.
Now to answer one of the intentionally hurtful comments…If my husband worked a 9-5 job and we put our children in full-time daycare during this time, there wouldn’t be the same response But because my husband is self employed and works different hours every week, mostly evenings and weekends, then daycare schedules of 6am-6pm. Don’t work for us. Besides if I put the girls in daycare then they wouldn’t be able see me when I do have the energy to get up and be there. I actually realized recently that the girls see more of Chris and me now than they ever did before I got sick, because then Chris was away working 80% more, but now he can do that work from home and be there for the girls more consistently, also I worked full time with daycare and waitressing. If we were full-time working parent’s who put their children in daycare full-time, not due to illness, this comment would never have been made.
Besides doesn’t it take a “village” to raise a child, and isn’t it a responsibility of the parent to invite people into the child’s life that will nurture them, care for them and teach them. If I happen to die from this terrible disease, I have peace in knowing that I made a real effort to build them a strong supporting “village”. For me to be a good mother to my children, I just have to “be” and God will take care of the rest. I do believe that one day in the near future I will realize that I’m functioning at a much higher level and won’t require as much support. But in the meantime when I feel broken and weak, it sure feels good to know that I have friends who are willing to do what they can to help, (which includes encouraging comments, not negative ones) Thankfully I receive a few hundred positive comments for each negative one. But they still hurt and cause me to shed many tears. Some of those tears are for those who made the thoughtless comments. It is my hope and prayer that they themselves are never struck with a life threatening illness, or their children.
For me it has gotten harder before it’s getting better, which is not only hard on me physically, but also emotionally and mentally. It’s been over a year now and it’s hard when the Dr. says that most women, after the treatment I’ve had, said they didn’t feel “normal” for up to 2 years. It weighs me down when I think of another year of this. But I look at my lovely girls and I’m so grateful that when I have the energy to be up and around, I can focus on them and my husband and not feeling bogged down with house work, because some gracious person has done it for me so I can direct my energy to my girls. How do people get through cancer at our age, with little ones with out household help everyday? I really don’t know. I certainly wouldn’t have done so well. My one friend had her mom move in with her for a few months and then her mother-in-law. She had less treatment than me so the time she needed daily help was less, but she did have the help. In other situations the person may have insurance through their job that helps them out during that time, which doesn’t help those that are self employed. I know some women who had to move in with family members and give up their own home. Thankfully there are enough kind hearted, loving, caring, compassionate people out there who are willing to help and I look forward to the day when I’m feeling much better and I can start doing again what I feel the most comfortable doing and that’s helping others out when I can.
Lisa came today to help with the girls, I was feeling okay, so when I can, like today, I went with Lisa and the girls to the park. I can’t drive, so Lisa drove the Van with us in it. The girls had fun playing and Lisa was there if a child needed to be brought down or ran after, these are things I can’t do yet, but I can still be there as Carmelle picked dandelions and handed them to me and said, “I love you Mommy.” We had a lovely day at the park, because I had someone there to help. I’m so grateful for everyone who comes along side and assists us in the raising of our beautiful daughters.
Everyday I mourn the loss of time with my children. This has been the hardest part of what cancer has taken from me. But I rejoice in the fact the God has provided so many wonderful caregivers for our children, from my Mom, friends, preschool teachers, Sunday school teachers, Awana club teachers, other family members and of course Lizzy.
We were there for Lizzy when she needed us and she was there for us. We thought we had a very well balanced situation where Lizzy had a home during this difficult time in her life, and she was able to go when she wanted to move on, and she had schedule that was completely flexible (we got babysitters when Lizzy wasn’t available). We respected her space and continue to respect her belonging that are here. We told her many times that if she was in need for anything we were there for her, gas for her truck, or money for toiletries etc we gave her our debit card and PIN number and always trusted her. We believed that our relationship was built on love, respect and loyalty. Lizzy had room and board, her children were welcome in our home at all times (our girls loved playing with her children) Lizzy provided loving care to our home and children, just as any good friend would do. I’m grateful for her, and her 33 years of friendship. I wish the best for her and her family.
For some reason some folks on cancer treatment have a really hard time during the treatment months, and others have a harder time afterwards. I fall into the “afterwards” category. More or less, the last three months have felt like one long chemo treatment. My body has had a really hard time recovering from the radiation and chemotherapy. It didn’t help that I’ve had so many complications and set backs along the way. Such as having breast flap skin die after the mastectomy and having to have another surgery before that black dead tissue caused other problems. Then 3 days after that surgery I developed an Ecolli infection (from the hospital) and the surgical site abcessed and I was hospitalized for 4 days and given harsh anti-biotics, which made me as sick as the chemotherapy. I had a gapping open wound on my chest that had to heal from the inside out, for 6 weeks. I was unable to pick up my own children for 3 months.
Because of the infection, chemo therapy was postponed, not desirable for timely treatment. From my first chemo my white Tcells dropped drastically to 1.1 and I then had to have injections every two days for 6 months, after each chemo, so 50+ injections that Chris gave me. ( I’m so glad he’s able to give me injections, as I don’t know if I ever could on my own. I’m glad I haven’t had to try)
I had many harsh side effects from the chemo, many of which I’ve been experiencing lately as well. In mid January I thought I was sliding into home plate safe, when I developed a very large bleeding stomach ulcer, quite likely the worst pain of my life. Though last night I had such a bad migraine headache that I thought about going to emergency but I was finally able to keep Tylenol down once Chris gave me a shot of gravol. During that time I started to notice that I was having serious balance issues, stumbling, walking into things, dizziness, feeling like the room was tipping over on me etc. After much testing and seeing three specialist I now know I have a condition that could be for the rest of my life. Basically the motion sickness I’ve experienced my whole life from moving vehicles, I now get just from moving my own body. The only things they could suggest to make it better other than gravol, was to wear big wrap around sunglasses and a visor, to help limit the movement around me.
I’ve also experienced severe “chemo brain” which is a fun term used in the cancer world to describe the brain damage issues that can come from Chemo. The brain damage can be more or less severe and can be long term, short term or permanent . The most obvious one that most people talk about is memory loss, forgetfulness and short term memory loss. I’ve experienced all of these, mostly in the first week after each chemo and now for the last three months. My memory is so bad I got a daytimer to write everything in, but then I forgot where I put it, so I got a new one and forgot where I put that one as well. Not Fun.
Now to answer one of the intentionally hurtful comments…If my husband worked a 9-5 job and we put our children in full-time daycare during this time, there wouldn’t be the same response But because my husband is self employed and works different hours every week, mostly evenings and weekends, then daycare schedules of 6am-6pm. Don’t work for us. Besides if I put the girls in daycare then they wouldn’t be able see me when I do have the energy to get up and be there. I actually realized recently that the girls see more of Chris and me now than they ever did before I got sick, because then Chris was away working 80% more, but now he can do that work from home and be there for the girls more consistently, also I worked full time with daycare and waitressing. If we were full-time working parent’s who put their children in daycare full-time, not due to illness, this comment would never have been made.
Besides doesn’t it take a “village” to raise a child, and isn’t it a responsibility of the parent to invite people into the child’s life that will nurture them, care for them and teach them. If I happen to die from this terrible disease, I have peace in knowing that I made a real effort to build them a strong supporting “village”. For me to be a good mother to my children, I just have to “be” and God will take care of the rest. I do believe that one day in the near future I will realize that I’m functioning at a much higher level and won’t require as much support. But in the meantime when I feel broken and weak, it sure feels good to know that I have friends who are willing to do what they can to help, (which includes encouraging comments, not negative ones) Thankfully I receive a few hundred positive comments for each negative one. But they still hurt and cause me to shed many tears. Some of those tears are for those who made the thoughtless comments. It is my hope and prayer that they themselves are never struck with a life threatening illness, or their children.
For me it has gotten harder before it’s getting better, which is not only hard on me physically, but also emotionally and mentally. It’s been over a year now and it’s hard when the Dr. says that most women, after the treatment I’ve had, said they didn’t feel “normal” for up to 2 years. It weighs me down when I think of another year of this. But I look at my lovely girls and I’m so grateful that when I have the energy to be up and around, I can focus on them and my husband and not feeling bogged down with house work, because some gracious person has done it for me so I can direct my energy to my girls. How do people get through cancer at our age, with little ones with out household help everyday? I really don’t know. I certainly wouldn’t have done so well. My one friend had her mom move in with her for a few months and then her mother-in-law. She had less treatment than me so the time she needed daily help was less, but she did have the help. In other situations the person may have insurance through their job that helps them out during that time, which doesn’t help those that are self employed. I know some women who had to move in with family members and give up their own home. Thankfully there are enough kind hearted, loving, caring, compassionate people out there who are willing to help and I look forward to the day when I’m feeling much better and I can start doing again what I feel the most comfortable doing and that’s helping others out when I can.
Lisa came today to help with the girls, I was feeling okay, so when I can, like today, I went with Lisa and the girls to the park. I can’t drive, so Lisa drove the Van with us in it. The girls had fun playing and Lisa was there if a child needed to be brought down or ran after, these are things I can’t do yet, but I can still be there as Carmelle picked dandelions and handed them to me and said, “I love you Mommy.” We had a lovely day at the park, because I had someone there to help. I’m so grateful for everyone who comes along side and assists us in the raising of our beautiful daughters.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
"Friends for Feather" are at it again!
My friend Rosslyn and some of her friends, Candace mostly, have been on the trail..blazing to get funding for a nanny. They have found a reputable Nanny agency that will wave the $1000 finders fee and the ladies have got 14 people, most of which I've never met and don't know at all. They have all committed to a one time donation of $450, this is a gift donation so no tax receipts are available. Rosslyn asked if I would post this in hopes of getting more support. They want 30+ people to make sure the nanny is covered for a few months, hopefully 6. The month is put in an account that the bank will manage and automatic deposit monthly to the Nanny's account, so we don't ever have to deal with the money part of it. If you or someone you know is interested in helping out our family in this way, please contact Rosslyn.It's so great to have freiends that have so much energy and such wonderful ideas to make things happen. Thanks to those of you who supporting us, especially those we don't even know who just have a heart for my girls to have consistant childcare. You can reach Rosslyn at:
rdelmonico@telus.net
778-808-8917
rdelmonico@telus.net
778-808-8917
A light at the end…
Everyday now I feel a little bit better. Having said that, I’m still probably only functioning at 40%, but that’s much better than the 5% that I was at two weeks ago.
The last three months have been a blurr. I remember pieces but my memory is very scattered. It’s like being on “Chemo” week but for weeks on end. My one Dr says that’s exactly what’s happening to me. He says all the weight I gained in treatment , 35 lbs, became a source of storage for the chemo “toxins” that my body couldn’t handle at the time. IT’s also perhaps why the chemo wasn’t as hard on me as I’d expected, since I never threw up on chemo and had normal weeks through it all, plus I felt basically normal a month after finishing chemo. Now I’ve lost almost all of the weight I gained in treatment, about 25 lbs. But that’s why I’ve felt like I’ve been on chemo and had chemo brain for three months. My one Dr. figures I’ve got about one more month of this and then he figures I’ll start feeling much better.
I’m eating almost normally, though I’m not eating much because I don’t actually feel hungry, but I eat because I know I should.
Today I was suppose to be in Vancouver getting my Herceptin treatment that I’ve been receiving every 21 days since last August and was suppose to go straight through to this August. My Oncologist decided I should take a break from this treatment for one or two rounds. She wants to see me get really a lot better before I take it again. She says that in some rare cases Herceptin can become toxic in someones body, kind of like developing an allergy to it. So we are going to see how I go off of it. I’m also cutting back some of my other meds like anti-depressants, anti-anxiety drugs, sleep aids, and hopefully using less gravol.
Gravol is the one drug I won’t be able to cut out completely, as I used it all the time for motion sickness. Yesterday I drove home in the passenger seat of Caroline’s mini van, I took gravol before I left home, but it was over 4 hours, so by the time I got home I was puking sick. I’ve also had motion sickness, now it’s just a lot worse. I had tests done for the dizziness and vertigo and basically they told me that it’s an annoying condition that may be this bad for the rest of my life. I’ve always had really bad motion sickness, even elevators, swingsets etc. Now I have it just from walking around the house and even from just rolling while in bed. They can’t promise that it’ll ever get better, some people live with condition, and even though it’ll effect my everyday, it’ll just become habit, which it has been for years anyway, now it’s just every day.
We are still trying to raise money for a nanny. If you are able to help us out, you can contact us or perhaps Northview Church. Thank-you for your continued support.
God Bless.
The last three months have been a blurr. I remember pieces but my memory is very scattered. It’s like being on “Chemo” week but for weeks on end. My one Dr says that’s exactly what’s happening to me. He says all the weight I gained in treatment , 35 lbs, became a source of storage for the chemo “toxins” that my body couldn’t handle at the time. IT’s also perhaps why the chemo wasn’t as hard on me as I’d expected, since I never threw up on chemo and had normal weeks through it all, plus I felt basically normal a month after finishing chemo. Now I’ve lost almost all of the weight I gained in treatment, about 25 lbs. But that’s why I’ve felt like I’ve been on chemo and had chemo brain for three months. My one Dr. figures I’ve got about one more month of this and then he figures I’ll start feeling much better.
I’m eating almost normally, though I’m not eating much because I don’t actually feel hungry, but I eat because I know I should.
Today I was suppose to be in Vancouver getting my Herceptin treatment that I’ve been receiving every 21 days since last August and was suppose to go straight through to this August. My Oncologist decided I should take a break from this treatment for one or two rounds. She wants to see me get really a lot better before I take it again. She says that in some rare cases Herceptin can become toxic in someones body, kind of like developing an allergy to it. So we are going to see how I go off of it. I’m also cutting back some of my other meds like anti-depressants, anti-anxiety drugs, sleep aids, and hopefully using less gravol.
Gravol is the one drug I won’t be able to cut out completely, as I used it all the time for motion sickness. Yesterday I drove home in the passenger seat of Caroline’s mini van, I took gravol before I left home, but it was over 4 hours, so by the time I got home I was puking sick. I’ve also had motion sickness, now it’s just a lot worse. I had tests done for the dizziness and vertigo and basically they told me that it’s an annoying condition that may be this bad for the rest of my life. I’ve always had really bad motion sickness, even elevators, swingsets etc. Now I have it just from walking around the house and even from just rolling while in bed. They can’t promise that it’ll ever get better, some people live with condition, and even though it’ll effect my everyday, it’ll just become habit, which it has been for years anyway, now it’s just every day.
We are still trying to raise money for a nanny. If you are able to help us out, you can contact us or perhaps Northview Church. Thank-you for your continued support.
God Bless.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Help needed to drive me Tues & Wed
Now that the girls birthday party is over (just a few hours ago), I can look at my week ahead and try to organize childcare and transportation. I have medical appointments at the Surrey Cancer Clinic on Tuesday and Wednesday at the Vancouver Cacner Clinic. If you are able to help me out and drive me to my appointments, I'd really appreciate it. Though I'm feeling a bit better, I still don't feel well enough to drive anyone else, or myself long distances.
By the grace of God I managed a full day today from 7:30-3:30. Now I'm in bed and planning to sleep a few hours. I've had some waves of nausea and needed a bit of gravol, but not as much as I have been needing. I'm able to eat regular meals, but very small portions. Chris and I enjoyed a wonderful night at the Harrison Hotel, a gift from friends, and slept very well, but woke up to a blizzard?!?! We made the most of our nice room and never left. We spent the whole time in Pj's and had room service, while watching a few movies. Chris had the longest sleep he's had in months.
The girls "Princess" party was a huge success due to the help of friends and family. The girls are crashing from their sugar high and will hopefully sleep well tonight. Carmelle turned 5 on March 23rd and Cadence turns 3 on tuesday, but today was the party day. Right now I can hear them showing the babysitter their gifts while playing with their new toys.
Chris is working with Starfield in the studio and I'm down for the count. I would saw I'm functioning at about 60% which is much better than the 10% 10 days ago. Thank-you everyone for your continued prayers and support.
Please call or email if you can help me out with rides this week; 604-853-2966 or fjanz@featherjanz.com
By the grace of God I managed a full day today from 7:30-3:30. Now I'm in bed and planning to sleep a few hours. I've had some waves of nausea and needed a bit of gravol, but not as much as I have been needing. I'm able to eat regular meals, but very small portions. Chris and I enjoyed a wonderful night at the Harrison Hotel, a gift from friends, and slept very well, but woke up to a blizzard?!?! We made the most of our nice room and never left. We spent the whole time in Pj's and had room service, while watching a few movies. Chris had the longest sleep he's had in months.
The girls "Princess" party was a huge success due to the help of friends and family. The girls are crashing from their sugar high and will hopefully sleep well tonight. Carmelle turned 5 on March 23rd and Cadence turns 3 on tuesday, but today was the party day. Right now I can hear them showing the babysitter their gifts while playing with their new toys.
Chris is working with Starfield in the studio and I'm down for the count. I would saw I'm functioning at about 60% which is much better than the 10% 10 days ago. Thank-you everyone for your continued prayers and support.
Please call or email if you can help me out with rides this week; 604-853-2966 or fjanz@featherjanz.com
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
One Year...
I can hardly believe a year has past. One year since my surgery (April 5th); One year since I found out that I had cancer positive lymph nodes and would need chemotherapy; I got all of my long hair cut off and to be honest I haven’t really missed it. It’s growing back as thick as ever and I’m not really sure what to do with it. ( I get the worst bed head ever!)
I had no idea what the year would bring, and I’m glad I didn’t know. I now realize I can hardly grasp what I’ve been through. I’m glad I don’t remember a lot of it. I sit here and reflect on pieces of the year, the positive and the negative. I suppose I accept it all as my life experience that has gotten me here. I feel that if I can survive all of this then I can survive anything life brings and I’m prepared for a long life ahead of me.
I’ve switched gears over the last week. I’ve changed from thinking about fighting off the cancer and seeing myself as cancer-free and now just recovering from the treatment. In some ways it’s easier and in other ways it’s harder. Instead of breaking my life into segments of getting through the day, waiting for test results and getting to the next medical appointment; I can now see further down the road and feel comfortable making long term plans.
Though some points in the last week, were just getting through the next few minutes without running to the toilet, I can now feel more. I can celebrate my girls turning 5 and 3 and the warm summer months ahead. I look forward to being able to get a tan this summer and to run and splash with the girls on the beach.
Chris and I are looking forward to a night at the Harrison Hotel tomorrow night, thank-you to our friends who made this get away possible. We are looking forward to the time together.
I had no idea what the year would bring, and I’m glad I didn’t know. I now realize I can hardly grasp what I’ve been through. I’m glad I don’t remember a lot of it. I sit here and reflect on pieces of the year, the positive and the negative. I suppose I accept it all as my life experience that has gotten me here. I feel that if I can survive all of this then I can survive anything life brings and I’m prepared for a long life ahead of me.
I’ve switched gears over the last week. I’ve changed from thinking about fighting off the cancer and seeing myself as cancer-free and now just recovering from the treatment. In some ways it’s easier and in other ways it’s harder. Instead of breaking my life into segments of getting through the day, waiting for test results and getting to the next medical appointment; I can now see further down the road and feel comfortable making long term plans.
Though some points in the last week, were just getting through the next few minutes without running to the toilet, I can now feel more. I can celebrate my girls turning 5 and 3 and the warm summer months ahead. I look forward to being able to get a tan this summer and to run and splash with the girls on the beach.
Chris and I are looking forward to a night at the Harrison Hotel tomorrow night, thank-you to our friends who made this get away possible. We are looking forward to the time together.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Success and Failure...
The quality of the concert Saturday April 12th, was a huge success, I stated at the end of the night that there had been more talent on the stage than on any episode of “idol”. A highlight for me, was listening to my brother Daniel belt out a rock tune he wrote called “Feather”. In the song I had to laugh as I heard him sing, “She has no breasts left to lose.” Then I thought he sang, “…breathe left to lose.”…but he did sing, “Breasts.” Daniel knew I’d connect with what he sang. We had a good laugh afterwards:) The following are his lyrics:
Feather
You, you're an inspiration to me
With no apologies
I'll raise your banner
Too many times to count
You've been knocked around
But you always stand up
Tall, and hold your head up high
Never stop to question why
And every time
You're turning your obstacles
Into opportunities
I know, I know, I know
I'll never be like you
Where do you find the strength to persevere
To face each coming year
And continue pressing
On, with passion and with grace
Humility and faith
You always impress me
Now, like a feather on the wind
High above the world again
You continue
Turning your obstacles
Into opportunities
I know, I know, I know
I'll never be like you
There's a disease in our family tree
It chose you rather than choosing me
Your strength of will, I confess
(Though you're running out of breasts)
You're so much stronger than I'll ever be
You're turning your obstacles
Into opportunities
I know, I know, I know
I'll never be like you
I was grateful to have those come out that did Saturday night, I know they had a night to remember. I suppose it would have left better to have more people there, especially for those that put so much into making the night possible. It ended up being the warmest day in almost 6 months. We raised $720 total, which will just about cover the expenses of one of us in my support group to go to the retreat in Quebec for Young Adults with cancer; though we are going to split that amount between Julie and I, so we have a bit more fundraising to do. Donations are still welcome.
I really enjoyed the concert and in my eyes and in my heart, it was a success!
I was really hoping to feel better by now. I’ve still been receiving fluids through IV. Each day I feel a little bit stronger, but I have really struggled with feelings of success and failure.(strength and weakness) I had to cancel a big speaking engagement I had scheduled for next week.
I’ve NEVER felt that I couldn’t do something. It’s not like me to not push forward and make it happen. But the last few days God has revealed to me that my new normal in life might include a different kind of success than I’ve been used to gauging my life success by. My new normal will include less expectation.
As I struggle with feelings of failure, I see success all around me. My girls who are thriving and full of life; who’s birthday party is this Saturday. Carmelle is celebrating turning 5 and Cadence is turning 3. Life keeps on moving so quickly.
This past year has gone by so quickly. They say time goes fast when you are having fun, so I’m not sure why this year has gone so fast?!?! Perhaps in it’s own way it’s been a true success and a time to reflect on and celebrate, therefore, FUN!
Right now I know I’m having more fun than Chris, who’s having to spend days on our taxes; A time when we mark on paper the financial success or failure of our past year.
The following are thank-you’s to those who helped to make last Saturday such a success:
Thank-you Caroline (Byers) Laanstra for your efforts over several months to make the 12th such a memorable night for me, you are such a great friend!
The Chilliwack School District, Sardis Sec, Bourquin printers and Brian Rodda (graphics)
Thanks to my Mom for organizing such fabulous door prizes and to all those who donated door prizes; Ted Driediger, Rustic Soap co., Blockbuster etc.
Thank’s to Erin (McAstocker) and Nicole (Morris) Huband for handling the door and sales.
Carrie-Anne and Leah VanderZwan for doing Chris’s merch table and entertaining the Girls.
Thank-you Carrie for such a great idea last Nov to have an event like this!
Of Course the evening wouldn’t have been possible without the artists; MARIKA!!! Daniel and his band (The Neverknown), Lisa Adrianne and My dear husband, awesome as always!
...All in all the success far out weighs the "failure".
Feather
You, you're an inspiration to me
With no apologies
I'll raise your banner
Too many times to count
You've been knocked around
But you always stand up
Tall, and hold your head up high
Never stop to question why
And every time
You're turning your obstacles
Into opportunities
I know, I know, I know
I'll never be like you
Where do you find the strength to persevere
To face each coming year
And continue pressing
On, with passion and with grace
Humility and faith
You always impress me
Now, like a feather on the wind
High above the world again
You continue
Turning your obstacles
Into opportunities
I know, I know, I know
I'll never be like you
There's a disease in our family tree
It chose you rather than choosing me
Your strength of will, I confess
(Though you're running out of breasts)
You're so much stronger than I'll ever be
You're turning your obstacles
Into opportunities
I know, I know, I know
I'll never be like you
I was grateful to have those come out that did Saturday night, I know they had a night to remember. I suppose it would have left better to have more people there, especially for those that put so much into making the night possible. It ended up being the warmest day in almost 6 months. We raised $720 total, which will just about cover the expenses of one of us in my support group to go to the retreat in Quebec for Young Adults with cancer; though we are going to split that amount between Julie and I, so we have a bit more fundraising to do. Donations are still welcome.
I really enjoyed the concert and in my eyes and in my heart, it was a success!
I was really hoping to feel better by now. I’ve still been receiving fluids through IV. Each day I feel a little bit stronger, but I have really struggled with feelings of success and failure.(strength and weakness) I had to cancel a big speaking engagement I had scheduled for next week.
I’ve NEVER felt that I couldn’t do something. It’s not like me to not push forward and make it happen. But the last few days God has revealed to me that my new normal in life might include a different kind of success than I’ve been used to gauging my life success by. My new normal will include less expectation.
As I struggle with feelings of failure, I see success all around me. My girls who are thriving and full of life; who’s birthday party is this Saturday. Carmelle is celebrating turning 5 and Cadence is turning 3. Life keeps on moving so quickly.
This past year has gone by so quickly. They say time goes fast when you are having fun, so I’m not sure why this year has gone so fast?!?! Perhaps in it’s own way it’s been a true success and a time to reflect on and celebrate, therefore, FUN!
Right now I know I’m having more fun than Chris, who’s having to spend days on our taxes; A time when we mark on paper the financial success or failure of our past year.
The following are thank-you’s to those who helped to make last Saturday such a success:
Thank-you Caroline (Byers) Laanstra for your efforts over several months to make the 12th such a memorable night for me, you are such a great friend!
The Chilliwack School District, Sardis Sec, Bourquin printers and Brian Rodda (graphics)
Thanks to my Mom for organizing such fabulous door prizes and to all those who donated door prizes; Ted Driediger, Rustic Soap co., Blockbuster etc.
Thank’s to Erin (McAstocker) and Nicole (Morris) Huband for handling the door and sales.
Carrie-Anne and Leah VanderZwan for doing Chris’s merch table and entertaining the Girls.
Thank-you Carrie for such a great idea last Nov to have an event like this!
Of Course the evening wouldn’t have been possible without the artists; MARIKA!!! Daniel and his band (The Neverknown), Lisa Adrianne and My dear husband, awesome as always!
...All in all the success far out weighs the "failure".
Friday, April 11, 2008
4 days of unintentional fasting...
It started tuesday, I'm hoping it's the flu (but that no one else will get it)I haven't been able to keep anything down for four days. The only thing I've had is Iv fluids. Thankfully the Dr. set me up so Chris could do it from home. It just figures that these are the days that Chris isn't working from home. I've ended up going to work with him two days, so that he can monitor my IV and medications. The best part is that he's working at "The Ware House", Brian Adam's studio in Vancouver. Ironically the band that is recording on the floor below us is AC/DC, a band that I've never listened to and don't even recognize when we pass on the stairs. Chris is here finishing up Colin's album (that's his younger brother), so I am welcome to do what I need here, whether it's puke in the bath room or watch TV. I've been sleeping a lot, not worrying about the children (who are with my mom) and I just had a scoop of vanilla ice cream and one fresh strawberry, I'm praying in stays down. Doctor says if I'm not eating and drinking by Sunday, that into the hospital I go.
I'm looking forward to the Fundraiser Tomorrow night at Sardis Sec. I don't think I'll be able to do much other than enjoy the music and to see those that show up. Hope to see you there!!
I'm looking forward to the Fundraiser Tomorrow night at Sardis Sec. I don't think I'll be able to do much other than enjoy the music and to see those that show up. Hope to see you there!!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
We miss our "Auntie" Lizzy!
After 7 months of caring for our home and our daugthers, the time came for our "Auntie" Lizzy to move on with her life plans. We appreciate all that Lizzy gave to us, keeping our home front on the go.I sure miss having my best friend so close, to be a listening ear, to be a shoulder to cry on and to have laugh at my jokes. We wish all the best for her and all her future endeavors. She gave so much to us, I know good things are coming her way.
Lizzy has left a void in many ways, the obvious being that we are needing childcare. I've been at the lowest point,in every way recently, in the whole year of treatment. I had no idea that these weeks (months) would be the hardest and that we have a need for consistent and loving childcare for our girls as we all struggle through this time.
This last week has been the hardest on me emotionally, mentally and physically. I thank God through it all for His faithfulness I still see in everyday...as my child brings me a pillow, blanket and "puke" bucket and says that she'll help me get better. Lord, hear the words of my child, who wants a mother who is well...and the "Mariposa" Fairy barbie.
Lizzy has left a void in many ways, the obvious being that we are needing childcare. I've been at the lowest point,in every way recently, in the whole year of treatment. I had no idea that these weeks (months) would be the hardest and that we have a need for consistent and loving childcare for our girls as we all struggle through this time.
This last week has been the hardest on me emotionally, mentally and physically. I thank God through it all for His faithfulness I still see in everyday...as my child brings me a pillow, blanket and "puke" bucket and says that she'll help me get better. Lord, hear the words of my child, who wants a mother who is well...and the "Mariposa" Fairy barbie.
See You Saturday at the Conquering Cancer Concert!!
"BACK TO THE CAUSE"
of Conquering Cancer
An upbeat musical event, featuring MARIKA, Chris Janz, Lisa Adrianne and The Neverknown (my baby brother Daniel's band)
Saturday, April 12th at 7:30pm
At Sardis Secondary highschool on Stevenson in Chilliwack.
The evening is sponsered by Sardis Alumni and Southside church.
Tickets are $10 at the door.
The Effect is raising funds for Young Adults Conquering Cancer.
YACC is the support group that I've been attending, and we are raising funds for a retreat/resort for young adults with cancer, in Quebec in July.
Door prizes given out through the evening.
I hope to see you there, showing your support and enjoying the music!
If you'd like a tax receipt for your donation, make the cheque payable to "Realtime Cancer."
of Conquering Cancer
An upbeat musical event, featuring MARIKA, Chris Janz, Lisa Adrianne and The Neverknown (my baby brother Daniel's band)
Saturday, April 12th at 7:30pm
At Sardis Secondary highschool on Stevenson in Chilliwack.
The evening is sponsered by Sardis Alumni and Southside church.
Tickets are $10 at the door.
The Effect is raising funds for Young Adults Conquering Cancer.
YACC is the support group that I've been attending, and we are raising funds for a retreat/resort for young adults with cancer, in Quebec in July.
Door prizes given out through the evening.
I hope to see you there, showing your support and enjoying the music!
If you'd like a tax receipt for your donation, make the cheque payable to "Realtime Cancer."
Thursday, April 3, 2008
GARAGE SALE CANCELLED!
DUE TO A FEW UNFORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES I WON'T BE ABLE MANAGE A GARALE SALE.
I PLAN TO DO THE SALE IN JULY.
I PLAN TO DO THE SALE IN JULY.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Garage Sale Saturday!
We'd love your help,1) with bringing stuff buy for us to sell (proceeds go for fundraising)2)Helping organize with the friday night labelling prices and then 3)others for the day of the sale to help with sales.Contact me if you can help.
Sincerely,
Feather and family
Sincerely,
Feather and family
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